I truly believe life is a set of algebraic equations.
1+1=2 3+4=7 5×5=25
(x + 1)2 = 2×2 + x + 1
It is the root of our being.
A man’s past + his present = his future
M(Pa) + M(Pr) = Mft
A man + a woman = a child
M + Wm = ch
Hydrogen Chloride + water quickly becomes hydrochloric acid
HCl + H2O → H3O+ + Cl–
What is captivating about a balanced elemental equation, is as soon as you change one element, one variable, the entire rest of the equation changes.
In 2010 I knew myself + my experience from my MA degree + six months of artistic residency + x would = whether I would return to UK?
m + MA + ART + x = UK ?
I had assigned to ‘x’ that quality of if I did indeed receive a Post-Study VISA to the UK, then I would indeed return. Despite an enjoyable time in the south of France with my then partner (another variable of the equation which in fact altered the UK return:)
m + MA + ART + x = Wm
. Wm UK
and despite an enjoyable and productive time on a farm with friends in the US, I was granted the VISA. So I returned and for two years I worked and I worked and I worked and I worked….. from one university then another. Up until the last second when I passively gave them both the opportunity to renew my VISA. Neither did.
By then I had made a decision I wanted to stay.
My present + past + x = stay in UK
MPr + MPa + x = M(UK)
Only viable solution to x was to embark on a PhD. So I researched. Who What Where When How and Why….. But the day to day struggle to survive in a city proved overly trying on my mind and I was too distracted. The window closed.
A door had opened though. One that lead to exactly what I should be doing.
I stepped through it into a warm welcoming room, wood burning stove billowing in the darkened corner. But that door too closed behind me. Relieved for one moment, after two I panicked and tried to knock it through. Three times a harm.
d e n i e d
And so I stay. In Paris. In a monks room behind the theatre.
Me + past + new present = new future? Of what? Not sure….
M + MPa + M(nPr) = x
I have ideas.
I’m open to suggestions.
I expect nothing.
I’m anxious for everything.
the algebraic dilemma? what happens when you offer up a new variable? How does that outcome alter?
past + (me present x [a female present]) = (different)future?
MPa + M(nPr) x MaLa = x